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GOD, IMPRESSED UPON ME, I WAS TO SHARE MY TESTIMONEY WITH EVERYONE I COULD REACH WITH IT. AS A CHRISTIAN, MY DESIRE IS TO DO EVERYTHING THAT HE ASKS OF ME.

ARE YOU GOING THROUGH TRIALS IN YOUR LIVE RIGHT NOW, AND ARE YOU CARRING HEAVY BURDENS THAT ARE WEIGHTING YOU DOWN. IF SO, I HOPE THEN THAT YOU WILL BE BLESSED, AND PERHAPS POSSIBLY EVEN HELPED THROUGH SOMETHING THAT I MIGHT SAY TO YOU THROUGH MY WORDS, AS WE ARE WALKING TOGETHER DOWN THIS PATH.

BEFORE I BEGIN I WANT TO SAY "THANK YOU LORD, IT'S GREAT TO BE ALIVE, AND FILLED WITH HIS PRESENCE, GREATNESS, AND LOVE."

LET ME START OUT NOW, BACK WHEN I WAS TWENTY-NINE YEARS OLD. ONE DAY I HAD TO GO INTO MY DOCTOR WITH SOME PROBLEMS. WHILE I WAS THERE HE DISCOVERED WHAT HE THOUGHT, COULD BE A HEART PROBLEM. HE WORKED WITH ME FOR SEVERAL MONTHS, TRYING TO CURE IT WITH MEDICATION. BUT THAT DID NOT SOLVE THE PROBLEM, LIKE HE WAS WANTING IT TO. HE ALSO KEPT FINDING OTHER LITTLE THINGS HAPPENING WITH MY HEART. BY THE TIME I HAD TURNED THIRTY YEARS OLD THINGS HAD NOT IMPROVED SO HE DECIDED TO GO AHEAD AND SCHEDULE ME TO HAVE A HEART CATHERIZATION. I WENT IN TO MEET THE DOCTOR WHO WOULD BE DOING THIS TEST. I HAD LOTS OF QUESTIONS TO ASK OF HIM. NOW OF COURSE THE MAIN QUESTION WAS "HAVE YOU LOST MANY PATIENTS DOING THIS TEST" BECAUSE AT THIS TIME THIS TEST WAS A FAIRLY NEW TEST BEING DONE. SO OF COURSE I WAS APPREHENSIVE ABOUT IT. HE LET ME KNOW HE HAD ONLY LOST TWO PEOPLE SO FAR!! I ASK HIM TO NOT LET ME BE HIS THIRD!

THE DAY FINALLY ARRIVED WHEN I WAS TO GO INTO THE HOSPITAL FOR THIS TO BE DONE. THE PREPERATIONS WERE COMPLETED. I KISSED AND TOLD MY PARENTS AND HUSBAND I WOULD SEE THEM LATER. THE DOCTOR HAD TOLD THEM AT THIS TIME, IT WOULD PROBABLY BE IN ABOUT AN HOUR. THEN THEY WHEELED ME OFF INTO THE SURGERY ROOM. I WAS TRANSFERRED TO THE SURGERY TABLE AND MY BODY WAS QUICKLY PREPARED TO GET THE TEST DONE. I WAS THEN GIVEN A LIGHT INTERVENOUS SEDATIVE. AS I LAY THERE PARTICIALLY AWAKE, THEY INFORMED ME OF EVERYTHING THEY WERE DOING TO ME. I FINALLY FELT THE WARMTH OF THE FLUID FLOWING UP THROUGH MY VEINS, FEELING EVERY SURGE OF IT GOING INTO MY HEART. THEN BOOM! I STARTED FEELING EXCRUCIATING PAIN IN MY CHEST. IT FELT LIKE A SEMI TRUCK WAS PARKED ON TOP OF ME, BOUNCING UP AND DOWN. I WAS HAVING A VERY SEVERE HEART ATTACK. THEY HAD HIT A BLOCKAGE IN MY HEART. THEY HURRIEDLY PLACED SEVERAL NITRO TABLETS UNDER MY TONGUE. THAT DID NOT WORK. THEN THEY TOOK THE LONGEST BIGGEST SYRINGE I HAD EVER SEEN IN MY LIFE, AND PUSHED IT DOWN DEEP INTO MY CHEST CAVITY DIRECTLY INTO THE HEART, AND THE MEDICATION WAS IN, BUT STILL TO NO AVAIL. THE LAST REMBERANCE I HAD, BEFORE I WENT OUT COMPLETELY, I WAS TELLING THEM NOT TO LET ME DIE, AND COME LORD JESUS, KEEP ME SAFE, BECAUSE I HAD THREE SMALL CHILDREN, AND TWO FOSTER BABIES AT HOME TO RAISE. I KNEW THEN, THAT WAS WHEN GOD TOOK OVER MY LIFE, WITH THE SITUATION I WAS IN AT THIS TIME. I WAS IN THE PRESENSE OF HIS GRACE AT THAT MOMENT. I HAD SEVERAL TIMES IN MY PAST WONDERED WHAT DEATH WAS LIKE. NOW I CAN ASSURE YOU, IN MY OPPION THAT IT IS JUST LIKE CLOSING YOUR EYES TO SLEEP. THE HURT, SUFFERING AND PAIN IS FOR THE LOVED ONE LEFT HERE ON THIS EARTH. IT TOOK FIVE ELECTRICAL SHOCKS TO BRING ME BACK TO LIFE.

WHEN I OPENED MY EYES AGAIN, WHICH WAS AROUND FIVE HOURS AFTER ALL THIS HAPPENED, I SAW MY FIRST HUSBAND AND FATHER STANDING BESIDE MY BED IN THE INTENSIVE CARE UNIT. THE TEARS WERE FALLING FROM THEIR EYES. I WAS HOOKED UP TO EVERYTHING IMAGAINABLE IN THIS INTENSIVE CARE ROOM. THEY TOLD ME THAT THE CALLS FOR THE BLUE CODE HAD BEEN HEARD SEVERAL TIMES, AND THE CRASH CARTS HAD GONE BY THE WAITING ROOM. BUT THEY DID NOT REALIZE IT WAS FOR ME, UNTIL FOUR HOURS HAD SLIPPED BY THEM SENCE I HAD BEEN TAKEN INTO SURGERY. THEY FINALLY RELIZED SOMETHING MUST HAVE HAPPENED. THEN THEY KNEW SOMETHING HAD WHEN THE DOCTOR CAME OUT AND GAVE THEM THE NEWS.

THIS ROOM WAS WHERE I STAYED FOR SEVENTEEN DAYS. TWO PEOPLE IN THE ROOMS ON EITHER SIDE OF MINE PASSED AWAY WHILE I WAS THERE. I WAS SO GRATEFUL IT WAS NOT ME. THEN FINALLY THEY TRANFERRED ME ONTO THE HEART FLOOR FOR ANOTHER FOUR WEEKS. DURING MY STAY I MUST HAVE HAD A MILLION NEEDLES STUCK INTO MY BODY. I WAS SENT HOME THEN TO RECUPERATE WITH ONE FORTH OF MY HEART BEING DEAD. IT TOOK ME A FULL YEAR TO GET BACK TO NORMAL LIFE. I HAD A LOT OF PRAYERS GOING UP TO HEAVEN ON MY BEHALF DURING THIS TIME FROM A LOT OF PEOPLE I KNEW. MY CHURCH FAMILY, PERSONEL FAMILY AND FRIENDS. I WAS SO GRATEFUL TO THEM FOR THOSE PRAYERS. GOD HAD MERCY ON ME AT THIS VERY YOUNG AGE. HE SPARED MY LIFE. I PRAISE HIM FOR THAT, AND I AM SO THANKFUL TO HIM.

SEVEN YEARS PAST, WITH UPS AND DOWNS, IN AND OUT OF HOSPITALS WITH MY HEART CONDITION. THEN WHEN I WAS THIRTY-SEVEN YEARS OLD, THE SECOND HEART ATTACK HIT ME AT HOME. WITH THIS ATTACK I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL IN ONE AREA FOR THREE WEEKS, THEN TRANSFERRED TO STANFORD UNIVERSITY FOR ANOTHER WEEKS STAY, TO UNDER GO MANY MORE TESTS, WHICH INCLUDED ANOTHER CATERIZATION. THEY FINALLY HAD TO GIVE ME MORPHINE TO GET ME CALMED DOWN TO BE ABLE TO DO THIS TEST. YES, I WAS SCARED, BECAUSE OF WHAT HAPPENED WITH MY FIRST TEST LIKE THIS. AFTER THEY GOT EVERYTHING DONE THAT NEEDED TO GET DONE, I WAS BROUGHT BACK TO THE HOSPITAL I HAD BEEN SENT OVER FROM, FOR ANOTHER TWO WEEKS STAY. THEN BACK HOME TO RECUPE FOR ANOTHER YEAR. GOD ONCE AGAIN SPARED MY LIFE. ALTHOUGH PROBLEMS WITH MY HEART KEPT OCCURING, HE GAVE ME A GOOD LIFE AS I WALKED ALONG HIS PATH. HE NEVER LEFT ME ALONE ON THAT PATH. IT WAS ALWAYS FULL OF HIS CONSTANT CARE AND LOVE TO ME. AFTER THIS GOD TOOK ME THROUGH A VERY NASTY DIVORCE. THEN HE SO LOVINGLY PLACED IN MY PATH A YEAR AFTER, A WONDERFUL CHRISTIAN MAN, WHICH I HAVE BEEN MARRIED TO FOR FIFTEEN YEARS NOW.

DURING THE NEXT FEW YEARS THAT WENT BY I HAD TO HAVE MAJOR STOMACH SURGERY, THEN ANOTHER VER SERIOUS SURGERY SOMETIME LATER. TO HAVE TWELVE INCHES OF MY LOWER COLON REMOVED, DUE TO ACUTE DIVERTICALITAS.

WHEN I WAS ABOUT FORTY SEVEN YEARS OLD I FOUND OUT THAT NOW I HAD DIABETES ALONG WITH MY HEART CONDITION. THIS OF COURSE WAS NOT A GOOD THING TO HAPPEN EITHER. THE DOCTOR TRIED TO CONTROL IT WITH MEDICATION, BUT IT WAS NOT CONTROLABLE IN THAT MANNER. HE HAD TO PUT ME ON TWO SHOTS A DAY OF A HIGH DOSAGE OF INSULIN. PRAYERS WERE BEING LIFTED TO HEAVEN AGAIN FOR ME. GOD, IS SO FAITHFUL TO HIS PROMISES HE GIVES TO US THROUGH HIS WORD, AND SO MARVELOUS TO ANSWER PRAYERS. HE KEPT SHILDING ME THROUGH EVERYTHING THAT I WAS ENCOUNTERING.

AS TIME WENT ON THE HEART BEGAN TO ENLARGE MORE. MY BLOOD PRESURE WAS HAVING TO BE CONTROLED. FLUIDS WERE BUILDING UP IN MY BODY, AND A DISEASE CALLED SYNDROM X STARTED CLOSING UP SOME OF THE SMALL CAPILLARIES AROUND MY HEART MUSCLE. THEY HAD BEEN WORKING TO HELP PUT OXYGEN INTO MY HEART. THIS WAS ALL OCCURING AS I WAS HAVING CONJESTIVE HEART FAILURE ALSO. I KEPT WORKING HARD AT TRYING TO KEEP UP MY FAITH, AND KEEPING MY TRUST IN MY HEAVENLY FATHER, FOR I KNEW HE WAS THE GREATEST PHYSICIAN OF ALL THESE AILMENTS IN MY LIFE.

AS TIME KEPT PASSING, I WAS ABOUT FIFTY THREE YEARS OLD NOW, WHEN MY HUSBAND, AND I WERE TOLD BY MY CARDIOLOGIST, THAT I HAD APPROXIMATLY TWO YEARS LEFT TO LIVE, DUE TO THE CONDITION THAT MY HEART WAS IN NOW. HE THEN INFORMED ME, THAT MY ONLY HOPE WOULD BE, TO BE PUT ON THE LIST TO HAVE A HEART TRANSPLANT. HE WAS NOT EVEN SURE THIS COULD BE DONE, DUE TO MY DIABETES, OR NOT BEING ABLE TO EVEN LAST. BECAUSE OF THE WAITING TIME FOR A NEW HEART TO BECOME AVAILABLE TO ME. I TOLD MY SITUATION ONCE MORE TO MY CHURCH FAMILIES, MY FRIENDS, AND MY PERSONAL FAMILY. WE ALL BEGIN AGAIN LIFTING UP SPECIFIC PRAYERS TO GOD, FOR HIS HEALING TOUCH ON ME, AND FOR HIS GRACE AND MERCY TO ME. WE KNEW THAT GOD WAS THERE FOR MY LIFE. I WOULD ALWAYS BE UPON HIS MIND EVEN THOUGH NONE OF US WERE REALLY UNDERSTANDING ALL THAT WAS GOING ON. I FELT THE POWER OF ALL THOSE PRAYERS IN MY LIFE. GOD HAD CALLED MANY PEOPLE TO PRAYER FOR MY SITUATION AND AS THEY BEGIN TO PRAY, GOD BEGIN TO MOVE IN A MIGHTY WAY FOR ME.

I WAS GETTING READY TO BE SENT OVER TO STANFORD FOR EXTENSIVE TESTING, TO SEE IF I COULD EVEN BE PLACED ON THE LIST, BUT BEFORE I WENT OVER, MY DOCTOR DECIDED TO DO ONE MORE TEST ON ME. WE WERE ALL WAITING FOR THE RETURN RESULTS OF THIS TEST. IT SEEMED LIKE AN ETERNITY, OF WAITING. FINALLY THAT DAY CAME WHEN MY HUSBAND AND I WENT IN TO HEAR ABOUT THE RESULTS. MY CARDIOLOGIST CAME INTO THE ROOM SMILING, GIVING US THE NEWS. MY HEART HAD SHRUNK IN SIZE, WHICH IS UNHEARD OF. WHAT GORIOUS NEWS. WE ALL PRAISED GOD TOGETHER. GOD, HAD ONCE AGAIN INTERVINED WITH HIS MIRICLES FOR ME. WHAT AN AWESOME, WONDERFUL SAVIOR I HAVE. HOW FANTASTICLY HE ANSWERED ALL THOSE PETITIONS OF PRAYERS THAT HAD BEEN GIVEN TO HIM. NOW BECAUSE OF HIS WONDERFUL MIRICLES, AND GRACE I DID NOT HAVE TO BE SENT OVER TO STANFORD TO BE PUT ON THAT TRANSPLANT LIST. NO ONE CAN EVER TELL ME, THERE IS NOT POWER IN PRAYERS. GOD TELLS US TO MAKE OUR REQUEST KNOWN TO HIM, NO MATTER HOW BIG OR SMALL. HE PROMISES THAT HE WILL MEET ALL OUR NEEDS. PRAISE HIS NAME, HE HAD DONE JUST THAT FOR ME. HOW CAN HE EVER BE THANKED ENOUGH BY ME.

I TELL YOU THIS STORY, TO NOW SHARE ANOTHER MIRICLE THAT HAS COME ABOUT IN MY LIFE FROM GOD. THIS PAST FEBUARY ONE EVENING WE HAD SIX FRIEND'S COME OVER. DURING THEIR VISIT, I STARTED GOOFING AROUND SHOWING THEM THIS FUNNY LOOKING THING THAT WAS ON THE SIDE OF MY KNEE. IT LOOKED LIKE A RED ROPE GROWING UNDER MY SKIN. THEY ALL GOT EXCITED ABOUT WHAT THEY SAW AND STARTED TELLING ME I NEEDED TO SEE A DOCTOR RIGHT NOW. THEY FINALLY CONVINCED ME TO CALL INTO THE EMERGENCY ROOM OF THE HOSPITAL. THE HOSPITAL TOLD ME TO COME IN NOW, AFTER I TOLD THEM ABOUT THIS THING ON MY KNEE. I WENT IN AND THEY DID ALL THE THINGS TO ME THAT THEY DO IN EMERGENCIES. WHEN THEY GOT MY BLOOD COUNT RESULTS BACK, THAT BLOOD COUNT WAS 73,000. NOT KNOWING WHAT WAS GOING ON I WAS PUT INTO THE HOSPITAL FOR FOUR DAY'S. GIVEN INTERVINOUS ANTIBODICS, AND TEST'S WHICH INCLUDED A BONE MARROW BEING TAKEN. THEN I WAS RELEASED, NOT REALLY KNOWING WHAT IT WAS ON MY KNEE AND LEG. THEY THOUGHT MAYBE IT WAS DIVERTICALITAS CAUSING THE INFECTION. TWO DAYS LATER THIS THING KEPT GROWING UP MY LEG, AND GOING UP INTO MY ARM'S NOW. SO OFF I WENT AGAIN TO THE DOCTOR, THIS TIME WITH A BLOOD COUNT OF 89,000. I REALLY WAS NOT FEELING TO BAD AT ALL. BUT BACK INTO THE HOSPITAL I WENT.

THE ONCOLOGIST CAME INTO MY ROOM TO TALK WITH MY HUSBAND AND I TELLING US THE RESULTS OF THE BONE MARROW TEST HE HAD DONE. THE NEWS THAT HE GAVE US WAS, THAT I HAD ACUTE LYMPHOMA LEUKEMIA. HE WENT ON BLUNTLY TO TELL US THAT I HAD ONLY TWO WEEK'S TO TWO MONTHS LEFT TO LIVE. WE WERE TO GET MY LAST THINGS IN ORDER. THEN HE CONTINUED ON TO TELL MY HUSBAND, RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME, THAT WHEN IT WAS TIME FOR ME TO DIE, NOT TO PUT LIFE SUPPORT'S ON ME, BECAUSE MY HEART WOULD NOT TOLERATE IT, AND TO JUST LET ME GO. ….WOW…… WAS THAT EVER A SHOCK TO HEAR SOMEONE BE SO BLUNT ABOUT YOUR PENDING DEATH. I FELL BACK AND SAID….WOE…. LORD! WHAT IS IT YOU ARE TRYING TO TELL ME HERE! THIS WAS MY SECOND GO AROUND WITH BEING TOLD I ONLY HAD SO LONG LEFT HERE ON THIS EARTH TO LIVE. NOW LET ME TELL YOU, I WONDERED IF HE KNEW WHAT AN AWESOME GOD I SERVED, AND WHAT GOD, CAN DO FOR A PERSON IF IT IS IN HIS WILL TO HEAL THEM, AS I MENTIONED BEFORE. MY DOCTOR IS AN EXCELLENT PHYCICIAN, AND I HAVE COMPLETE CONFIDENCE IN HIM. BUT I KNEW MYSELF I WOULD HAVE TO HAVE STRONG FAITH IN GOD, ALSO TOTAL DEPENDANCE UPON GOD WITH COMPLETE LOVE, SERVICE, DEVOTION, LOTS OF PETITIONS OF PRAYERS, AND THANKFUL PRAYERS TO HIM, TO GET THROUGH ALL THIS NOW. MOST OF ALL MY WILL HAD TO BE HIS COMPLETE WILL FOR MY LIFE. THIS HAD TO BE, NO MATTER WHAT, HIS DECISION WAS FOR ME, IN MY LIFE NOW. I KNEW I LOVED GOD, AND THAT HE LOVED ME. I KNEW ALSO THAT I HAD A HOME IN HEAVEN PREPARED FOR ME IF THAT WAS WHAT HIS WILL WAS GOING TO BE.

I SPENT THIRTY-FOUR MORE DAY'S IN THE HOSPITAL ON MANY DIFFERENT KINDS OF, ALMOST CONSTANT INTERVENIOUS ANTIBODICS, STERIODS, SEVERAL KIND'S OF CHEMO, THREE BONE MARROW'S TAKEN PLUS THE ONE THAT HAD PRIVIOUSLY BEEN TAKEN, TWO BAG'S OF PLATELET'S, SURGERY TO HAVE A BLOOD LINE PUT INTO PLACE IN ONE OF MY ARTIES. MY VEINS HAD TOTALLY COLLOSPED. THEN SEVEN PINT'S OF SOMEONE ELSE'S BLOOD WAS GIVEN TO ME BECAUSE OF BLEEDING OUT SO MUCH, WHILE IN THE HOSPITAL. I WANT TO PRAISE GOD RIGHT NOW, FOR PEOPLE GIVING THEIR TIME BLOOD, AND EFFORT TO SHARE THEMSELVES WITH OTHERS WHEN IN NEED. THERE WERE DAYS I COULD NOT EVEN HARDLY MAKE IT OUT OF MY BED. MY LEGS, WOULD NOT FUNTION PROPERLY, AND I WAS LIFELESS FROM THE CHEMO TREATMENTS. MY IMMUNE SYSTEM WAS TOTALLY GONE. THERE WERE MANY TIMES NO ONE WAS ALLOWED INTO MY ROOM FOR VISITS, BECAUSE OF WHAT I WAS ENDURING. WHEN THEY DID COME IN, MASKS HAD TO BE WORN FOR MY PROTECTION. NO ONE WAS ALLOWED TO EVEN TOUCH ME, EXCEPT FOR THE DOCTORS OR NURSES. THE STERIODS PUFFED MY FACE UP LIKE A BASKETBALL. I WOULD LOOK INTO THE MIRROR AND SEE MYSELF. I WOULD HAVE TO CHUCKLE AT MYSELF AT HOW DIFFERENT I LOOKED. I TOLD THE LORD IF THIS WAS PART OF MY HEALING, THAT WAS JUST O.K. OF COURSE NOW I WILL HAVE TO SHARE ABOUT THE HAIR LOSS, FROM THE CHEMO. NOT ALL OF IT CAME OUT THOUGH, AND I GOT EXCITED ABOUT THAT. WHEN IT FINALLY STARTED GROWING BACK, AFTER A PERIOD OF TIME PASSED, IT CAME BACK IN CURLY AND WHITE. I TOLD MY PASTOR, THIS WAS JUST THE PREPARATION OF CORDINATING MY COLORS UP TO MY WHITE ROBE I WOULD WEAR IN HEAVEN SOME DAY. CHEMO, CAN DO A LOT OF WEIRD THINGS TO OUR BODIES, AS SOME OF YOU HAVE PROBABLY EXPERIENCED. NO ONE CAN KNOW UNLESS THEY HAVE HAD CANCER. EVEN THROUGH ALL THIS, MY HEAVENLY FATHER WAS STILL WALKING ON THAT PATH WITH ME. I KNEW HE WAS WITH ME THROUGH ALL THIS AGONY AND SUFFERING.

I WANT TO TELL YOU NOW AS I LOOK BACK UPON THIS TIME IN THE HOSPITAL I THINK IT WAS WELL SPENT. FOR I KNEW THE LORD TRULY WAS WITH ME IN ALL WAYS . I MET AND GOT TO KNOW PEOPLE IN THIS HOSPITAL, AND I FOUND OUT THAT I HAD VERY FEW NURSES, OR NURSE'S HELPERS OR DOCTOR'S, WHO DID NOT KNOW THE LORD AS THEIR PERSONAL SAVIOR. FROM THE ONSET OF MY HOSPITAL STAY THE MEDICAL STAFF WAS VERY CARING AND COMPASSIONATE. WE ALL SHARED ABOUT THE GOODNESS OF THE LORD, AND SOME OF US EVEN PRAYED TOGEATHER. I REMEMBER EVEN THE NIGHT JANITOR ASKING IF HE COULD PRAY WITH ME, ONE NIGHT WHEN HE CAME BY. HE STOOD THERE HOLDING ONTO HIS MOP WITH HIS HEAD BOWED ON THE TOP OF IT. HE SAID A BEAUTIFUL UPLIFTING PRAYER FOR ME. I APPRECIATED HIS LOVE FOR THE LORD, AND HIS KINDNESS TO ME.

YOU MAY THINK THIS SOUNDS ODD, BUT I FELT A LOT OF GLORY IN THAT HOSPITAL ROOM THOSE THIRTY-FOUR DAYS. A COUPLE OF THINGS HAPPENED TO ME FROM THE LORD WHILE I WAS THERE. THE FIRST ONE WAS; ONE NIGHT IN THE EARLY HOURS OF MORNING, GOD CAME TO ME AND AWOKE ME. HE WAS CALLING MY NAME SO TENDERLY. AT FIRST I LAYED THERE A LITTLE PUZZLED AS I WAS HEARING MY NAME BEING CALLED. BUT I FELT AND SENCED HIS PRESENCE RIGHT THERE ALL AROUND ME. AS HE BEGIN SPEAKING TO ME, MY MIND BECAME VERY ASTUTE TO WHAT WAS HAPPENING. GOD WAS TELLING ME THAT HE JUST WANTED TO ASSURE ME, THAT HE WAS THERE FOR ME, AND THAT HE WOULD TAKE CARE OF ME, THROUGH EVERYTHING I WOULD HAVE TO ENDURE. THEN I FELT MYSELF BEING LIFTED UP INTO HIS ARMS. HE GENTLY, AND SWIFTLY CARRIED ME UPWARDS, AND SET ME DOWN ON SOMETHING THAT WAS LIKE A PLATFORM SUSPENDED IN MID AIR. HE THEN SET DOWN BESIDE ME. WHILE I WAS SITTING WITH GOD, ON THAT PLATFORM, HE JUST HELD ME CLOSE TO HIM, IN HIS ARM'S. AFTER A MOMENT, MY HUMAN MIND REALIZED MY HUSBAND WAS NOT WITH ME. SO I ASK GOD "WHERE IS MY HUSBAND" AND INSTANTLY HE BROUGHT MY HUSBAND UP THERE TO THAT PLATFORM WITH ME, AND SET HIM DOWN ON THE OTHER SIDE OF HIM. THEN HE PUT HIS LOVING ARM AROUND HIM TOO. HE KNEW MY HUSBAND WAS HURTING BAD, AND THAT HE NEEDED COMFORT AND REASURRANCE JUST AS MUCH AS I DID. I CAN NOT DISCRIBE THE AWESOMNESS OF WHAT HAPPENED THAT NIGHT IN THE HOSPITAL, BUT I CAN TELL YOU IT WAS AS REAL AS I AM SITTING HERE WRITING THIS TESTIMONEY FOR YOU. I HAVE NEVER HAD A PEACE AND ASSURANCE OF HIS LOVE LIKE THAT BEFORE. AFTER THIS INCIDENT, EVERY BONE MARROW, SPINAL TAP, ALONG WITH ALL THE OTHER THINGS THAT HAVE BEEN DONE TO ME. I KNEW GOD WOULD BE WITH ME, AND HE STILL IS. I HAVE FELT GOD'S LOVING ARMS HOLDING ONTO ME, AND CARING FOR ME AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN. HE NEVER HAS BROKEN ONE WORD THAT HE HAS EVER GIVEN TO ME. HOW COULD I HAVE EVER HAD MUCH FEAR, WHEN I WAS SURROUNDED LIKE I WA S WITH GOD'S PRESENCE. LOTS OF LOVE, ALONG WITH GOOD CARING FRIENDS, CHURCH FAMILY AND A PASTOR WHO HARDLY MISSED A DAY COMING IN TO SHARE WITH ME. BUT MORE THAN ANYTHING THE UNMATCHLESS, ULTIMATE POWER OF THE GREATEST PHYCICIAN EVER, MY HEVENLY FATHER.

ANOTHER BLESSED EVENT THAT TOOK PLACE WHILE I WAS THERE, IS SOMETHING I WILL NEVER FORGET. MY CARDIOLOGIST CAME IN TO SEE ME ONE MORNING, AND HE WAS STANDING BY MY BEDSIDE HOLDING ONTO MY HANDS. THERE WERE TEARS STREAMING DOWN HIS CHEEKS. I REACHED UP AND TOUCHED AND WIPED THE TEARS FALLING DOWN OFF HIS FACE. I TOLD HIM IT WAS O.K. FOR US TO CRY, FOR THAT WAS JESUS WASHING THE WINDOWS OF OUR SOULS FROM THE SADNESS WE WERE SHARING TOGETHER. WE DID'NT KNOW THE FUTURE GOD HAD PLANNED FOR ME. THE TWO OF US THEN PRAYED TOGEATHER. HE AND ALL THE OTHER CHRISTIAN DOCTOR'S, AND NURSE'S MEET EVERY THUESDAY MORNING AND PRAY TOGEATHER BEFORE THEY BEGIN THEIR DAYS WORK. HE ALSO LET ME KNOW I WAS PRAYED FOR EACH TIME, BY SEVERAL DOCTOR'S AND NURSE'S OF THE HOSPITAL. YOU MIGHT LIKE TO KNOW MY CARDIOLOGIST TELLS ME, MY HEART SOUNDS BETTER NOW THAN BEFORE. WHAT A GLORIOUS CHRISTIAN MAN HE IS.

ANOTHER TIME, GOD SPOKE TO ME ABOUT SOME ISSUES I NEEDED TO LOOK AT IN MY LIFE. GOD TOLD ME, NOT YOU, OR ANYONE ELSE, THAT I, AS A PROFESSING CHRISTIAN, HAD TO COME OUT AND BE MORE SEPERATED FROM THE WORLDLY THINGS, AND TOO HUNGER AND THIRST MORE AFTER HIM AND HIS RIGHTEOUSNESS, AND HIS WORD THE BIBLE. ALSO TO FIND LOVE FOR ALL HIS CREATED PEOPLE.

I LEFT THAT HOSPITAL KNOWING I WAS GOING TO WORK AT DOING MY BEST FOR GOD, IN NOT GOING INTO PLACES THAT ARE OF THE WORLD THAT HE DID NOT WANT ME IN. THE HOLY SPIRIT JABBED ME RIGHT IN MY HEART THIS TIME. THE MIND STARTED TURNING THEN, AND I THOUGHT LORD, IF YOU CAME BACK FOR YOUR CHILDREN, WOULD YOU TAKE ME OUT OF A PLACE THAT IS OF THE WORLDS PLEASURES, WOULD YOU GO INTO THAT PLACE YOURSELF, IS BEING IN PLACES OF THE WORLD AN EXAMPLE TO OTHERS? I KNEW GOD DELT WITH PEOPLE IN HIS OWN TIMING, AND CONVICTED THEM IN HIS OWN WAYS. I ALSO THOUGHT TOO THAT I ALREADY LOVED PEOPLE AS MUCH AS I COULD, AND THAT I WAS READING HIS WORD LIKE I SHOULD. I HAVE BEGIN TO LEARN DIFFERENTLY. HIS WORD NOW HAS BECOME MORE POWERFUL TO ME. I UNDERSTAND IT BETTER NOW ALSO. BELIEVE IT ARE NOT, I ALSO HAVE FOUND OUT THAT THERE REALLY IS MORE COMPASSION, AND LOVE TO BE FOUND THROUGH CHRIST FOR OTHERS. EVEN THE UNLOVEABLE PEOPLE OF THIS WORLD. I KNOW THROUGH HIS GUIDANCE, IT'S NOT REALLY GOING TO BE HARD TO GIVE UP THE THINGS THAT I THOUGHT WERE PLEASURES TO ME. LET ME TELL YOU, I KNEW BEING SPOKEN TOO FROM GOD, AND BEING IN A SITUATION OF LIFE OR DEATH LIKE I WAS, I DID'NT WANT TO MESS AROUND OR QUESTION GOD, ON WHAT HE ASK ME TO DO FOR HIM. I KNEW IF I LOVED HIM, I WOULD JUST DO IT, AND GET ON WITH WHAT HE ASKED OF ME TO DO IN MY LIFE FOR HIM. I NEVER WANT TO BE A BAD EXAMPLE. I KNEW GOD WAS POINTING OUT TO ME THE RIGHT WAYS IN WHICH I SHOULD LIVE MY LIFE AS A CHRISTIAN NOT JUST FOR HIM BUT FOR OTHERS THAT MIGHT BE WATCHING MY LIFE STYLE.

I'VE WONDERED MANY TIMES IF THIS MIGHT BE PART OF WHY GOD ALLOWED THIS PETICULAR ILLNESS TO FALL UPON ME, SO I WOULD BE STILL FOR AWHILE, AND GIVE HIM MY TOTAL ATTENTION. WHERE HE COULD RESTORE MY SPIRIT, MY SOUL AND MY LIFE. TO THEN GIVE ME COMPLETE FAITH IN HIM, BECAUSE I KNEW FAITH WAS A GREAT SOURCE OF MY STRENGTH, AND TO GET A NEW OUTLOOK ON LIFE FOR SERVING, AND BECOMING A MORE EFFECTIVE CHRISTIAN FOR HIM. AS I CONTINUE WALKING WITH HIM HERE ON THIS EARTH. GLORY TO HIS NAME FOR HIS HEALING TOUCH. HIS POWER IS GREATER THAN THE GREATEST. HIS MAJESTY IS ABOVE ANY OTHER. THE CREATOR OF MY LIFE. I KNOW FOR SURE THAT HE IS THE BEGINNING AND THE END OF THIS HUMAN LIFE.

AFTER THESE THIRTY-FOUR DAYS, THAT DAY FINALLY ARRIVED WHEN MY DOCTOR WALKED INTO MY ROOM, AND TOLD ME TO GET UP, IT WAS TIME TO GO HOME AND GET A LIFE. I BEGGED HIM NOT TO SEND ME HOME. I FELT SECURE THERE IN THAT HOSPITAL AND WAS GETTING TWENTY FOUR HOUR CARE. I WAS AFRAID TO GO HOME AND HAVE TO TRY TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF. HE WAS VERY SERIOUS, SO I GOT UP AND WE DID ALL THE NECESSARY THINGS THAT HAD TO BE DONE. RECUPERATION OF REGAINING STRENGTH AND FORDITUDE WAS LONG AND HARD AT FIRST. MY LOVING HUSBAND HARDLY LEFT MY SIDE. I HAD TO HAVE A WHEEL-CHAIR TO GET AROUND IN, BE HELPED ON AND OFF MY SPECIAL TOILET BECAUSE OF MY WEAKNESS. GIVE ME MY SHOTS AND MEDICATIONS. HE HAD TO GIVE ME MY BATHS, CHANGE MY CLOTHING, DO ALL THE HOUSE WORK, AND LAUNDRY PLUS PREPARING OF OUR MEALS. THROUGH ALL THIS HIS OWN OUTSIDE JOB HAD TO BE DONE. I CAN'T IMAGINE HOW HE KEPT UP THIS PACE OF LIVING, IT HAD TO ONLY BE THROUGH GODS STRENGTH. OUR CHURCH FAMILY BROUGHT US IN DINNER MEALS FOR A MONTH, WHICH WE WERE SO GRATEFUL FOR. OUR LIFES HAVE CHANGED BECAUSE OF THIS ILLNESS, AND WE BOTH REALIZE THAT IT WILL NEVER BE LIKE IT WAS BEFORE. DISPITE ANY OF THIS THOUGH I KNOW LIFE WILL BE O.K. FOR MY HEAVENLY FATHER IS IN CONTROL OF IT. A LOT OF GOOD THINGS HAVE OCURRED IN OUR LIFES SENCE THE ORDEAL OF THIS ILLNESS. IT HAS GIVEN BOTH OF US MORE OF A SENSITIVITY TO ONE ANOTHER, AND AN AWARENESS OF EACH OTHERS NEEDS. OUR MARRIAGE HAS BEEN STRENGHTENED. GOD HAS BECOME SO CLOSE TO EACH OF US.

FROM ME TO YOU NOW, I CAN'T TELL YOU TODAY THAT I DID NOT, AND DO NOT STILL SOME, GET ALITTLE DISCOURGED AT TIMES, OR THAT THE EMOTIONAL STRAIN OF LIVING WITH THIS IS NOT TREMENDOUS AND OVERWHELMING, OR I DO NOT QUESTION GOD ONCE IN AWHILE AS TO WHY. ALSO NOT REALLY BEING ABLE TO UNDERSTAND QUITE WHAT HAS HAPPENED THROUGH ALL THIS. I WANT YOU TO KNOW RIGHT NOW, THAT GOD NEVER FAILS TO COME TO ME AT THOSE TIMES. WHEN THOSE HUMAN THOUGHTS POP UP, I WILL SET BACK SEE HOW I WAS, AND STILL AM SURROUNDED WITH HIS PRESENCE, AND PEOPLE LIKE, GOOD CARING FRIENDS, VERY COMPETENT DOCTORS, AND A WONDERFUL HUSBAND, WHO IS ALWAYS THERE FOR ME SPIRITUALLY AND EMOTIONALLY. IF YOU HAVE A NEED, AND YOU NEED SOMEONE IN YOUR LIFE FOR SUPPORT AND PRAYERS. CALL UPON GOD, FOR IT TELL US IN….MATTHEW 6:33…. "BUT SEEK FIRST HIS KINGDOM, AND HIS RIGHTEOUSNESS, AND ALL THESE THINGS WILL BE GIVEN TO YOU AS WELL." IT IS MAGNIFICENT HOW GOD CARES FOR ALL HIS CHILDREN. GLORY—HALLELUIAH AND PRAISE'S FOR PEOPLE WHO KNOW HOW TO REACH HEAVEN THROUGH PRAYER. I HAVE HAD PEOPLE ALL AROUND THE UNITED STATES AND IN MEXICO REACHING UP TO HEAVEN IN PRAYER ON MY BEHALF, PEOPLE I DID NOT EVEN KNOW, BECAUSE OF SOMEONE TELLING THEM ABOUT MY SITUATION. I FEEL SO HUMBLED, BUT SO THANKFUL TO ALL OF THESE PEOPLE WHO HAVE BEEN SO FAITHFUL WITH THEIR PRAYERS. AGAIN I SAY GLORY TO HIS NAME, FOR ALL HIS MIRICLES IN MY LIFE, AND TO YOU WHO HAVE HAD THESE MARVELOUS EXPERIENCES HAPPEN TO YOU ALSO.

I SURE CAN TELL YOU ONE THING I'VE LEARNED THROUGH ALL MY STRUGGLES FOR SURVIVAL THESE PAST YEARS, IS THAT I HAVE GAINED SOMETHING IN RETURN FROM GOD, AND IT'S SOMETHING THAT CAN NEVER BE TAKEN AWAY FROM ME. THAT IS THE UNIQUE ABILITY TO SEE ALL THE SPECIAL MOMENTS OF EACH DAY NOW. I REALIZE MORE THAN EVER THAT LIFE IS A PRECIOUS GIFT GOD HAS GIVEN TO ME. HE HAS TRUELY GIVEN TO ME THE ABILITY TO SEE EACH DAY THROUGH DIFFERENT EYES.

YOU MUST BELIEVE THAT GOD WANTS THE BEST FOR YOUR LIFES. BELEIVE IN HIS PROMISE'S, LOVE HIM, AND SERVE HIM . HE WILL TAKE CARE, AND BE WITH YOU THROUGH ANYTHING THAT HE FEELS IS THE BEST POSSIBLE THING FOR YOUR LIFE AND SITUATION.

I WOULD ASK YOU WHO MIGHT BE READING THIS TO PRAY FOR ME IN YOUR PRAYER'S. REMEMBER IT IS A PRIVILEDGE TO PRAY FOR ONE ANOTHER. THERE IS ONLY TWO TO FIVE PERCENT OF THE LEUKEMIA LEFT, AND MY HEART HAS NOT BEEN GETTING WORSE. I AM CLAIMING HIS COMPLETE HEALING FROM THE TOP OF MY HEAD TO THE TIP'S OF MY TOE'S, IF THAT'S HIS WILL FOR ME. I KNOW I AM HIS AND HE IS MINE. HE HAS TOTAL CONTROL OF MY LIFE FOREVER NOW. HE WILL NEVER LEAVE ME NOR FORSAKE ME. HE LOVES ME AND WILL ALWAYS BE WITH ME, AS HE WILL YOU TOO. HE WILL NEVER ABANDON US.

LET ME ASK YOU, IS YOUR LIFE AND SOUL PREPARED FOR A DISASTER THAT MIGHT COME UPON YOU, LIKE IT HAS ME SO MANY TIMES. MY FRIENDS WE NEVER KNOW WHEN GOD MIGHT DECIDE IT'S OUR TIME. LIFE IS SO FRAGILE. CANCER OR OTHER DISEASES CAN STRIKE A PERSON AT ANYTIME. THEY ARE NOT A RESPECTOR OF ANY AGE, OR PERSON. DON'T LET IT BE TO LATE IN YOUR LIFE AS TO WHERE YOU WILL SPEND ETERNITY……JOHN 3:16….."FOR GOD SO LOVED THE WORLD, THAT HE GAVE HIS ONLY BEGOTTEN SON, THAT WHOSOEVER BELIEVETH IN HIM, SHOULD NOT PERISH, BUT HAVE EVERLASTING LIFE".

IF YOU ARE NOT WALKING IN GODS PATH WITH YOUR HAND IN HIS, ASK HIM TO COME INTO YOUR HEART AND GO DOWN LIFES PATH WITH YOU. HE WILL GIVE YOU PEACE OF HEART, AND JOY IN YOUR SOUL.

GOD BLESS YOU, AND MAY HE KEEP YOU IN HIS PERFECT WILL. HE LOVES YOU AND I LOVE YOU TOO, THROUGH HIM. THANK YOU FOR TAKING THE TIME TO READ MY TESTIMONEY, AND SHARING MY JOYS OF GOD'S BLESSINGS WITH ME, AS WE HAVE WALKED GOD'S PATH TOGETHER HAND IN HAND.

UPDATE: Today is June 15, 2000 and I would like to update you on my condition. The leukemia has returned to my body as of this date. This does not discourage me, I know that my Heavenly Father is still in charge of my life. I know and Acknowledge that he is in control of all things. He is The Great Physician in all our lives. I do still and always will have complete faith and trust in him. I know he holds my tomorrows in His hands and He is giving me His grace and mercy to go through this, another time. I am walking in His will for my life whether He chooses to take me home to Him now, ot twenty years from now. I want ALL to know, Shouting from the Rooftops, that I love My Jesus and accept all things He has in store for my life. As I continue down His path of Glory, He is still holding onto my hands and carrying me again in His Loving Arms. Revelations; 12:11 "They overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their Testimony, they did not love their lives so much as to shrink from death." I am His child and I want to continue to be His witness as long as He gives me breath to walk with Him here on this earth. I will follow where he leads me!!